Anonymous asked: The only reason that I follow people from school/let people from school follow me is that maybe they'll see me post about how bad I am, when I relapse, etc, and they'll ask and care about me. But whenever I used to see them in the hall or anything, nothing. And no messages. It just makes me feel so worthless.
I know it can feel like nobody cares, but I know from personal experience that people only see what they want to see. If they care about you, they don’t want to see you hurting—so they’ll tell themselves it’s not as bad as it really is, or that they’re just making it up or seeing things, because they don’t want to admit that you’re hurting and that they may be at fault for it even if they’re not. Denial is a painfully common thing. They may be secretly worrying, not noticing at all, or just too terrified to bring it up with you.
You have to find the strength within yourself to reach out to others. Whether it’s a close friend, a family member, a counselor, a therapist, a teacher, a doctor, whomever—you have to do it. It’s the only way. Even if it’s just a simple ask on Tumblr. Even if you keep it anonymous like this. Reach out, find out who cares, and keep reaching out. Kick and scream and fight against the painful urges inside yourself until you find a way to help yourself and find people who will help you help yourself.
I promise you that you are not worthless. I promise you that there are people who care. I’m one of them.
Reach out and talk. Keep talking until someone listens. And I’ll always be someone who listens if any of them don’t.